illusion!

The toughest job I selected..don't take it literally;I am telling about a role..to find myself!!It seems to be the toughest role I have ever played.Life is another name of a span searching for its own meaning?? confused?? ;)

Time pays a lot..indeed a lot!I am getting confused and even more puzzled. Words make me puzzled always. Sometimes I feel that the smartest way of expression is confusion;creating a shell within you..the more you will try to break the shell the more you will get confused!

Philosophies apart! Lets dig down into reality.
"Can you please remove the wreaths?
They are hurting me!
Let a solitary,masterly, majestic
stroke of fire make me forget..
The agony of my flowers"

I am not a poet,sometimes I do feel like the reverse though! Poets are escapist.The most precious thing in this world is peace..rest.We,the human beings are probably by nature against restlessness.
Again comes the word 'confusion'..if we are against restlessness then why do we work? Does work signify restlessness? I don't think so..

I don't want you to remove those wreaths as I had never got the opportunity to be with them..never ever in my life. Does that mean I am a loser??

Still I don't want misuse of flowers.Flowers are made for love..peace.Who ever didn't want love??Yup! I am fond of love...let it be fake;who cares??

Life is nothing but a unknown language..its complex if its interpreter interprets in a complex way. So..its the way we interprets that is responsible for our vision. Confused again??

"The agony of my flowers"..is the flowers mine at all?? How can one be so boastful about his achievements???Flowers tell lies..they are compelled to do so..but no one hurts them..are they(flowers) feeling tired for being used for lies for decades after decades?? Don't know..I have never asked them! I don't know what can be the agony of flowers..its misuse? wrong use? what else??

I am not an orator..I am not a leader.For me the best leader is that person who can lead himself.But why so? Perhaps its because of the fact that leaders create confusion!

"Charity begins at home.." so as politics.Are not we all politicians? What is politics?Is this all about convincing others and misleading others???Thats a big question of debate.. I am not fond of that too!

Deceptive??Am I? Are not we all?? Oops!!I failed the break the shell of mine!!!!!!:(

Unish Kuri Sesh..

Ekush perie baish a pa dilam.Ashtadoshir khoje(:P) lolzzz!! na.. ar teenager ami na..ei blog ta te amar anekgulo lekha upload kora baki..all about my feelings in teen days.1ta natun jinis likhlam..illusion..janina valo lagbe kina..aj kaler modhye hoyto upload korbo..reply must!

Ghurni

Ektao jibaner gaan likhte parina
chileo;
Sei jabe theke shabda k khun korechhi
aar..
Sasrodh kore merechhi sob anuvuti k.


Mrityu ar mritopray vasa die
Anuvutiin protita kobita
toke shonai!
Aar anabil ashay buk badhi
ekdin shonabo toke sasrudhdho
ei konthe; ..bhalo basi


Mon kharap kora dupur ar belasesher
aloy makha bikel gulo
nirbak hoye cheye thake..
Antarnga ratrir dibaswapno
tar harie gachhe roj kakdaka
bhorer kartabyer chorabalite!


Adrishyo dhulikonay bhar kore
bhese beray bhalobasar bishakto virus;
Bishtuku sushe nie amrit
tule dhorbo tor mukhe...
Parini...!

Amar basatna jure royeche spyrogyrar
bishakto chumbon,
Golap o kadchhe ekla rater
vyapsa andhakare!
Sharirer sob holdete bishakto
chhatrak gulo k dheke
toke dakchhi hatchhani die...
Aye..bish nibi to aye!

city of ''toy''

dhulo makha bikeler swaono mithya hoye gachhe besh kichhudin...achena manusher vire judhdho kore jaoa r besh kichhu subesha tarunir dike takie gujob chhorano..abar sadhya perie raat hole 1ta bichhanay ga elie judhdho shurur prostuti neoa er e majhe mone holo ei sahar ta jano chena chena hoye gachhe..tobu ora bole eta oder sahar..ki ashadharn dambho..eta amr ota tomar..ora budhdhijibi:)
keu bole ei sahare amar kato smriti valobasa achhe...keu bole city of joy!...abak hoye takie dekhi..aparadhir mato mukh lukie keu prem korchhe..keu halka jhari marchhe..r keu udasin vabe kichhu khujchhe..pran ki achhe naki ekei pran bole???ora bole eta amr sahar na...ami jani amar mato aro anek 'bideshi'..ei saharer ase pase kothao matha gojar thai khuje niechhe...thank u kolkata..thanks!tumi thakar jayga diechho..tai tumi mahan..kintu khama koro..kakhon parle duer kono grame eso apan kore nebo..akhane noy..bideshider apan korte nei..budhdhijibi hoye jahr korte hoy...eta amar sahar..sudhui amar ...maf koro...jar pran theke ami alada tar joy njoy korbo ki kore??amar kachhe tumi sudhui city of toy!

Elomelo kic hhu kotha!

Kichhu kotha elomelo… chhue jak pratita hridoy,satti hok mithya swapner vire kichhu chaoa!



Majhe majhe jhor ase..protita jiabne,kichhu ta bola hoy kichhu na bola theke jay!golaper chara khani amar hate lagano..amar sudhui amar adhikar ok ghire…lal hok ba golapi sei rongei rangie nite chai amake…r tomar aynay dekhbo nijeke antata ektibar!
Jhor ase r urie nie jay golap fuler protita papri,hat barie pagoler mato chhute muthobandi kori du ekta papri k hoyto..tobuo ki advut fakase!...adhikarer darpo churno hoy tobu swapno dakhar sesh hoy na.
Janala die cheye thaki cha baganer dike..kato kotha mone ase…chup kore bose thaki r vabi..samay nishthur vabe kere niechhe anek kichhu.fele esechhi anek kichhu…sudhu satti etai amar swapner samay sesh!
Nah..hoy to onyo kichhu hote parto..khanikta vul kimba thik,tobu aro ekbar purano dine firte chai..natun vabe vabte chai..natun kore bachte chai…golaper mulyo kise hoy janina..tabe golap j swapno dakhay seta hoyto mulyo die bichar kora jay na..unish kurir din sesh hoyto..kimba unish kuri chirantan..jai hok na kano bichar korar ami k?

Smriti..

Jhor r dheu sab firie nie gachhe..
tobu jhau gachher pata akre
ajo;
roye gachhe kichhu sarthapar
dhulikana!

Uchhas r abege buk theke uthe
ase ek jhalak rakto;
thik jokhkha rugir mato...
valobasar jibanu vora sei
rakto o aj sarthapar hoye
dehotyagi hote chay!

Er e majhe ekta golap
o futechhilo;
ekta anekta lal ronger golap...
hat bodoler kimba dustbin a
pore thakar jonye noy;
kata futie rakto die lal galbo
likhbe bole!

Raasta

Jevabe vebechhho tumi;
sevabe vabte parini ajo!
Ajo vebe choli..r sesh
khuje firi!

Ekta tapto niswas r
shital biswaser lorai
chole ajo!
Jamon cholto rong
badoler juge...

Rong nie anek khelechhi
holi;
hat badoler itihas more
gachhe kabe,
dana kata chiler mato...

Biswas shital hoyeche,
moreni ajo...
abar vabao amay;
purano diner mato kore..
ami hatbo abar!
vanga biswas a joratali die!